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i know there are parts of me that don't quite feel this way, but there is a big part of me that just wants to grow up and run away, leave whatever life i have created behind. dont get me wrong my life is looking is pretty darn good now but i would love a new setting my story. i think i want to go visit the brewers! quality time with my dad might just be the step back from the day to day life that i would appreciate. dissapointment. that probably could be the word for my tuesday, as i had hopes for possibilities, and just saw them crumble right in front of me, and yes its things such as a failed attempt yesterday that leave me feeling even lower on the confidence scale. i think a nap might cheer me up!