I lay ,almost lifeless on the couch recalculating my decisions in my mind, whether they be right or wrong, they have brought me to the place i am now, and while it's not too late to start making new decisions, i need a place to begin, a first step if you will, to bring me towards the direction i want to go, whatever direction that may be, all i know is i will be OK, turning a different direction to the path i placed myself on shortly ago.
my opinions of love continue to evolve, spinning like a planet bursting its way out of orbit. my actions reflect those of one who's love is mainly based upon recognition. I NEED TO BE RECOGNIZED. but by creating an image to be loved and cared for i find it makes it harder to truly establish what is deep down and real inside me. i want to banish all negative influences upon myself, so goodbye to those who have pushed me in the wrong direction, i will no longer grace you with my presence. i know that i deserve positive and uplifting people in my life.
excitement took over reason
rebellion took over honesty
and in the end emotions took over everything.
wait? yes.
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